You feel you are pushing through your life.
You have never really known or felt your soul purpose and feel lost.
You ask yourself what is wrong with me and/or my life.
You notice that you keep repeating old patterns.
You have a blok that keeps you from getting where you want to be.
There are days that you come home, tired and in sheer overwhelm. You had so much planned to do tonight, but the energy is just drained out of you. you feel lethargic and downright exhausted. Just enough to fix a meal, maybe get a glass of wine and fall asleep on the couch missing half the episode of your Netflix episode.
You wake up being upset, so many plans in your head and nothing is coming out of your hands. It all stays in dreams and ideas, until you really push for it … well and then it takes days to recuperate from that push.
This is not what you envisioned, there so much you still want to do and then these stupid old habits and old patterns appear again. You feel like you lost your spark at times, sometimes even like you lost yourself. And these pattern keep appearing and it seems as if these blocks, that keep you from what you want to achieve have never been yours in the first place….